Would being up there be a better feeling. And the hundred questions that I would never answer, or would take that a step further.
Its been so long.
I cant even say I miss this, or that I need this. I just have this feeling that I should, not that sort of feeling that obligation gives you. Or responsibility.
Just that feeling that I should, that this is life.
Like that.
I guess I'll only be getting a few things that I want with my life. There never was an assurance that I would anyway, just the dream that this is what should be.
I can only hope that I could say I am complete if I happen to die in the next minute.
What I am is beyond my dreams of 8 years ago.
What I am pales in some parts of what I dreamed of 8 years ago.
The thing is, only the dreams remain. Yes, I would not want to wake up from them.
They are good sources of sustenance.
